Last week was my birthday and I had an amazing day! The whole month of August felt like my birthday as the Lord really had been showering me with gifts and love. I have always been one to struggle with the truth of believing that the Father loves me. But, in the past few months he has really kicked it into high gear, to pound it into my heart that ‘Yes’ he does love me! I’m beginning to really grasp this in my heart and that is a really sweet thing to experience. We all know how it feels to know something in our heads but, also, to have that uneasy feeling of knowing that it is not really in our hearts.
I’m thankful to the Lord so much. That he is ole’ so faithful to do this work! This was no work that I could do, other than to continue to seek him, in spite of those feelings and stand on his word. He has really been the one that has done this in my heart. I feel like a new women. I know there are deeper levels of this, as the Lord is digging into my heart and removing a lot of weeds and planting himself there. My strongest desire is to be the kind of women who can’t help but sing the praises of the Lord! To be a women where the name of Jesus is so ever on my tongue. To be a women where his joy flows like a river out of every single pore I have. I believe that he will do this!
I have really been blessed my whole life and it seems the older I get, the more blessed I become. Ha! Just when I feel like things could not get any better and I have surely ‘tapped out’ on the Lord’s blessings…. he just pours some more over me. I must be honest too… this gets very emotional for me. Sometimes His love is so overwhelming… that I can’t breathe and I just cry in thankful tears.
I went to International House of Prayer in Pasadena last Saturday.. and went to The Well for the first time. The Well is where you receive prophetic prayer from people who don’t know you. One of the things that was spoken over me was that “You are in a season of blessing. Where everyday seems like your birthday and the Lord is just showering you with gift after gift. He hands you one gift, you open it and it’s amazing, and then you look up and He is handing you another. He has storehouses in heaven of gifts for you and loves to show you how much he loves you!” WHAT!!! Whoa! Yep… she hit that right dead on the money. And it was 3 days away from my birthday and I had already said… I feel like everyday is my birthday! So, that was just really comforting, confirming and just the Lord speaking to my heart again, on how much he loves me.
I’m excited to head to Israel. I also have quite a bit of nerves about it as well. It’s going to be so hard to leave my family at RLA. I haven’t really ever had a church family like this… and the Lord has redeemed so much of my fears on Christians though this body of people. I’m going to miss them so much and as that starts to really hit me, I’m starting to get sad. I don’t know where I’m gonna end up after I leave. I have an opportunity to go to Haiti for a month in December and then I don’t know if the Lord will send me on to complete bible college. I’m just riding this big wave and seeing what beach it will end up on. Either way it goes… I know it will be beautiful.
“O Lord, in your strength the king rejoices, and in your salvation how greatly he exults! You have given him his heart’s desire and have not withheld the request of his lips. For you meet him with rich blessings; you set a crown of fine gold upon his head. He asked life of you; you gave it to him, length of days forever and ever. His glory is great through your salvation; splendor and majesty you bestow on him. For you make him most blessed forever; you make him glad with the joy of your presence. For the king trust in the Lord, and through the steadfast love of the Most High he shall not be moved.” Psalms 21: 1-7
The Lord is so good!!!!!!! So! So! So! So! So! GOOD!
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Much love always,